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Healing

I heard this quote and it inspired me to write about it. It went some like this: if you don’t heal from the pain in your life first, you will bleed on those that didn’t hurt  you.  I think that it is so true. Unless you heal your wounds, they will remain open and those that will come into your life will trigger those wounds causing them to bleed.  Your  perspective of life will be molded from that pain. Your thoughts, feelings, actions and reactions will come out as a result of any unhealed areas in your past.  You may want to avoid it but our past cannot be erased. You must also want to heal instead of holding on to your story and use it as an excuse for your behavior.  Unless you deal with your anger and resentment, your words will be swords, you will try to show your power or become a victim, you will keep a score card and hurt those that cross path even when you don’t want to. Anger will  become your dominant emotion and resentment will fuel it like a veil deceiving your perception

I am sorry

To everyone that has come into my life:  I am sorry that I have judged you.  I am sorry that I measured you against a set of expectations that you didn’t even know about and that you were surely guaranteed not to be able to meet. I am sorry that instead of discovering who you are, I was busy finding who you are not. I am sorry that instead of accepting and embracing  your uniqueness,  I focused on wanting to change you.  I am sorry that instead of being understanding and having compassion for your feelings,  I sought out to prove my self  worth by making you feel small.  I sorry that I lost sight of what really matters and instead of loving unconditionally, I conditioned my love on you acting how I wanted you to act.  I am sorry for hiding my fears underneath anger. I am sorry for blaming you  instead of taking responsibility for my circumstances.  I am sorry that I didn’t apologize sooner and thought that it was a sign of weakness to admit that I didn’t really see YOU but saw my own m